Wow didn't realize it had been so long since I posted, sometimes life gets in the way. Today, I am going to put yet another recipe on my Blog.

Corn Chowder

One Pkg. of Bear Creek Creamy Potato Soup
Follow instructions on Pkg.
One Pkg. of Frozen Corn
Mix, simmer until ready to serve.

This is so easy its sinful LOL ENJOY

Found this is the best way to share Recipes I have found. The newest one I found is: 

                    

English Pea Salad

10 oz pkg. Frozen Peas

4 strips Bacon crumbled

2 boiled Egg chopped

1 cup shreded Cheddar Cheese

3 Tablespoons Mayo

2 teaspoons Lemon Juice

Mix Mayo and Lemon Juice together.

Combine with all ingredients 

I have been super busy since I have been home from moms. I miss her so much, but, I am happy I'm home with my family. And doing what I enjoy doing. Helped what I could in the garden, Cooked, Baked and made Quilts. Taken care of my family. Love being home.I seem to have swamped my self with projects I hope to get done by Craft Fair and Christmas. Hoping all gets done.

NO REGRETS! I was told by someone that I would have regrets about things that I did or didnt do for mom I have thought about this and as of right now I have no regrets I did the best I could and don't regret anything. I love my mom and I miss her

It seems like I have put some of my posts in drafts they haven't been posted so if they seem weird or out of place that is why.

I'm on day 22 of moms passing I miss her a lot trying to get use to being home with my family. Looking forward to having a BBQ for Laborday excited and a little nervous about bringing my brother Billy home for the first time without mom here. My brother Billy is mentally Chalnaged it will be something new and he doesn't do new very well. Wish me luck!

Mom isn't doing very well I'm doing the best I can to make her comfortable Told her it was time for her to go be with my dad and her family she said she knew I held her hand and we both cried Her body is shuting down don't know how long it will take. Hate seeing her this way:

Mom past away on August 5th between 3 and 4 AM  Then my couisns son past away  August 6th We had moms Services on August 8th and My couisns son today My cousin past away last Oct. been a pretty rough week esp. for my Aunt . Trying to figureout what I am going to do next

Didn't realize I hadn't posted since mom past away Mom left this world between 3 and 4 am on August 5th 2012 She was buried August 8th 2012 in Tooele City Cematery  We have been cleaning out her apartment finally turned her keys in today. Not sure where I go from here One day at a time Don't know what I'm doing tomorrow   Strange!

Mom is going down hill really fast right now Had to put her in diapers and take away her walker after I almost fell with her twice today. It was just pure luck ( or blessing) that she landed on the bed the last time Now if I can convince her its okay to be in bed.

Today is my Aunt Maes birthday I miss her so much esp. right now All those years my dad was sick she was my Solace .She told me what to do with dad and how to handle him.  I could sure use her advice now with her sister.  Will be bringing mom home tomorrow. Have had her in respite for 5 days Have enjoyed being home with my family. Would be lying if I said I was ready to go back MISS YOU AUNT MAE

Mom has had a rough week. She was up every ten minutes for two days, was so weak from that was asleep for a full day. I even had her stay in bed for her meals. She is getting weaker I now have to help her in and out of bed. Kinda hard because she is so much taller and bigged boned With my artheritis it becomes quite hard for me.Somedays I am so tired I swear I will sleep in and yet I'm up at the crack of dawn. Even when I go back to sleep its not for long.I think I'm sleeping in when I don't get up until 7:45 am Maybe someday I will be able to sleep until 8:00 am.That is my time to sip a diet Pepsi get on fb or just relax. I don't get mom up until 8:30 am for breakfast. Lately it has gotten closer to 9:00 am cause she just doesn't wake up.

Mom has had a couple of full days. We took her out to our house for a BBQ yesterday, today my cousin and my brother has been here to visit her. She is quite tired been sleeping a lot today. I can tell she was to weak to get up for lunch trying to get her up for dinner we will see. Not pushing her to do anything she can't do Even though she trys just not happening.

ABOUT MOM part 2

Update on mom we have had a hard week. It started by me telling her if she was to weak to go to my house for the 4th it was all right I would make all the things we're having over there over here. She took it that I wasn't going to let her go to my house for the 4th. There was HELL to pay then she stayed up all night talking and moving things around in the air. It was weird finally got up at 5 and told her that she was going to my house it was just letting her know if she was to weak it was all right. Still wouldn't settle down. I wasn't running to full speed that day and still trying to catch up on the rest isn't working but I am trying.

I have decided that no matter what when it is time for her to go to my house I'm taking her if she pasts from it   she will go happy. What can I say?

About Mom

Mom is declining making it very hard for me to leave. Not trying to be selfish about being here when she decides to go. I don't want my kids to have to go through losing her when they are here. It will be hard enough without having to witness it. She sleeps most of the time now. Not willing to give in to bedridden but, very hard for her to get up and move around. Giving her a lot more Morphine to make it easier for her to breath. She still has her wits about her. Knowing everyone that comes in and most of the time can hold a conversation. Short sentences but. will complete a full conversation.

I know my mom is going down hill really fast, feel bad yet again she hasn't much of a life that is for sure. Was so glad my Auntie Rose was able to come see her today even though I worry about her driving down from Ogden. I know she is a safe driver but at 86 years young I tend to worry just the same.It seems like time is just slipping away don't know quite what to exspect each day and some days the time seems to stop here and there.

Promised this to a friend earlier.
Calico Beans
5 cans of different kind of Beans as long as one of them is Pork n Beans
1 cup Brown Sugar
1lb. Bacon Cooked
1 bottle of Honey BBQ Sauce
Drain the Beans Except the PORK N BEANS mix in Crock-pot add Brown Sugar, Bacon Crumbled, Honey BBQ Sauce., Mix cook on Low all day or high for a few hours tasting is mantory YUM

Meatloaf

1 lb.Hamburger

1pkg.Stove Top Stuffing

1 egg

onion

Mix stuffing mix according to directions do not cook mix with Hamburger egg and onion.

bake @ 350 degrees for an hour to an hour and a half.

Roasted New Red Potatoes

18 to 20 potatoes 

1 Tbs Parsley

1 tsp Garlic Powder

1 tsp Paprika

1\4 tsp. Salt

1\4 tsp Pepper

1\2 stick butter

Mix Parsley, Garlic Powder, Paprika Salt and Pepper with melted butter pour over potatoes in Crock-pot cook on Low for 7 hours spoon out the potatoes out of Crock-pot add 2 tablespoons of water and mix with drippings pour over potatoes Enjoy

Mom is slipping I can now see it almost daily, today I tried to help her up and couldn't just not strong enough I guess, she is so much taller than I am and I guess the arthitis is taking its toll not as strong as I use to be.My brother came and visited with mom today. I think hes finally realized just how bad off she is. He did stay for quite a while. I have been trying to get use to my dumb phone and learning about my new tablet maybe one of these days I will feel smart again LOL.

Don and Donnie took me into the Verizon Store and set me up with a new tablet and a dumb phone which has just proved to me how dumb I really am. LOL I'm working at trying to use both I think its getting easier with the phone, I just have to remember that its not as hard as my smart phone was. All it does is phone, text, and pictures. Doesn't connect to the internet or anything like that. The Tablet on the other hand is a bit more complaicated It will take me a bit longer to figure out. Mom is still slipping no longer carrys on a conversation of more than a few words.at a time. Hoping she doesn't suffer like my dad did.

My son Donnie turned 35 this last week, not sure how I feel about that. Mom is slipping even more, no longer is her voice loud and strong, she looks sad most of the time claims nothing is the matter, having a harder time getting in and out of bed but, won't give into being bed-ridden which I guess is a good thing. Everyday occurrances seems to upset her more than ever before. Gets furstrated alot more and has no concept of time. Gets confused about things.I guess this is what we get to look forward to

Mom wanted to go outside for a walk a couple nights ago, we encountered a man and boy who wanted in the building When he asked us to let him in we told him we couldn't let him in cause it could make it so mom would get evicted the man said not a problem and got on his phone, this upset mom so bad that I'm questioning weather taking her outside is such a good idea. Although something like that may never happen again.

I'm afraid that things are catching up with me, It seems like I'm tired when I go to bed and just as tired when I get up.Mom is slowly slipping as far as her health. Don't know how much longer she will be with us. She is sleeping more and getting easily confused I'm hoping that when the time comes she will just be able to slip away with out much pain or it being dragged out forever. When my dad was told he had less than a year to live he lived for Ten Years after that. Seeing someone you love in pain everyday for Ten Years isn't something I want to go through again. Once was enough.

Moms nurse was here yesterday, she pointed out things I hadn't noticed with mom, she said its because I'm with her all the time. Moms heart is getting weaker, which is making her retain water in her legs. Her lungs are getting weaker also which is adding to her confusion and agitation. I have noticed that the smallest thing can really upset her. Often I have to tell the kids not to talk about things in front of her. She has a way of hearing things and twisting them so if she tells me I really don't know what she is talking about. They added a new medication to help her with her agitation, I gave it to her starting last night and hopefully we will remember to give it to her daily.

Been trying to come up with some things to sell at the Yard Sale here at Remington Park Apartments in Tooele its June 9th I believe from 9:00 am to 12:00 pm. I have been trying to remember how to crochet some little clutch purses that we learned how to do many years ago in Primary been working on one hoping its the way its suppose to be. single crochet just isn't my cup of tea as they say but, I'm trying.
Mom has had her ups and downs this last week, I'm hoping for a more peaceful week this week.

Its been a hectic week. Didn't know for sure when my grandson's kindergarten class was having their graduation until about 6ish last night. It was today took a little bit of thinking to figure out how I was going to make it and have Josie to a class she signed up for etc. Thanks Melissa and Tim for helping out. I was upset last year when I wasn't able to go to his pre-school graduation so I was very excited to be able to go this time. It never rains but what it pours or so the saying goes. By Tuesday of next week Tim and Melissa will be staying at our house. For how long I don't know.
Mom has done some strange things lately even for her, The Aide that comes in to help her shower and that has always made sure she had some little sponge things to moisten her mouth with. Tonight I found one in the handle of the distilled water that she uses in her oxygen consentator . I ask her about it and she had used it with baby lotion to put on her feet. Where is a soft wall when you need it. Head banging is all I can think of that might help LOL.

A couple of weeks ago I made a Pot Roast in the Crock-pot over at my moms, I love mashed potatoes so I rarely put anything but the roast and seasonings in it, but, just for a change I covered the bottom of my Crock-pot with onion petals next the carrots and last the potatoes I seasoned them with some Paula Deens Seasoning Salt tweeked  I mix 1 cup of  Salt 1\2 cup Pepper 1\2 cup Garlic Powder and use it a lot! Then I put the Roast in on top of the veggies adding just enough water to put moisture in ( Less than a cup )  And then I seasoned it with the same seasoning as before. After letting it cook on high until the meat pretty much falls a part Taking the meat out I took all the potatoes( with the goodness of the roast drippings ) I mashed them with butter and milk just like mashed potatoes. MOM LOVE IT! Hope the twist might help someone out who has the Pot Roast Blues.

Mothers Day over, I enjoyed having my family with me, mom was able to come over to my house. The only bad thing about it was starting Saturday my family started getting sick one at a time until Sunday night when as hard as I tried not to get it, it hit me. Stomach Flu isn't for the weak! Mom had a little problem last night but otherwise wasn't affected Thank goodness.I was really worried about it.

Mom had a pretty bad night actually not so pretty. She coughed most of the night and was up quite a bit. I'm hoping she isn't coming down with a cold. Uncomfortable for most right down miserable or worse for her If she is sick she won't be able to go to my house tomorrow.She won't like that at all

I'm getting excited about getting our garden in.I feel bad that most of the work will be put on Don's shoulders hoping I can help I like working in my garden. Not much on flowers, I love them but my green thumb is extended only to veggies for some reason. I so enjoy fresh veggies glad I can at least do that.

Been a couple of weeks I need be better at this. Mom has had a pretty good week, although she isn't happy that we aren't going out to my house today. The nurse said her heart couldn't take the stress of getting her out there every week. So we have cut back to every other week. She doesn't understand that its her heart that is slowing her down. Oh well I'm a meany again. I think all the kids have been here at one time or the other this week-end. I have been watching food network and have seen a steak sandwich I just have to try have to be careful with bell peppers for some reason I can't eat them they make me very sick. So I will make that part for everyone else and just saute onions for me. Hope everyone has a great week :-)

Moms appetite isn't what it use to be, nurse says thats normal for what she is going through. Don't dare feed her to much cause she just throws it back up. Then we have to clean it up. She is also asking for Morphine instead of fighting me when I try to give it to her. We're using it to help her breath. Not enough to knock her out or anything like that.

I have been working on my penny purses, hoping to get enough of them made to sale at our Craft Fair in July. More info to come on that.

Jamie and I have came up with another idea for a craft fair in July, I think it will be the 21st. I believe it will also involve yard sales. Hoping it can become a yearly event. Have started making penny purses and of coarse I will have some of the things that I have made for other craft fairs and haven't sold. More info to follow hope everyone is having a good week

Don't know for sure whats going on with mom she started throwing up @ my house last night and was throwing up when she got home. The fact that there seemed to be alot of activity around here last night had me wondering what was going on. I heard voices well into the night not sure where they were coming from. Hoping for a calmer day. On an up beat note, I have started to crochet little girl purses. I call them penny purses cause there will be a penny put into each purse :-) Heads up of coarse lol.

Right now in our area there are a lot of people retiring the Chemical Depot that has employed a lot of the people in our little town is shutting down. Most of the people that are retiring are around my age.

I belong to a Quilt Group a lot of the men that are retiring are husbands to my Quilt Buddies. A lot that is being said I just have to smile. Don has been retired for almost eight years. Don has always stayed busy. He about drove me nuts cause he was on the go from the time he got up to the time he went to bed. One advantage that we had was it was summer. We spent a lot of time on the four-wheeler One big problem that has been mention is that they are use to going to town alone being able to take their time etc. Don has always gone with me even when he worked so that has not been an issue with us. But once in awhile I have told him I need some down time and I have either gone to town or he has gone somewhere and given me a couple hours to myself. We have discovered that we enjoy doing a lot of different things together, we work together in the kitchen and in the yard garden etc. There are also things I enjoy doing that Don doesn't I do those things and Don goes and does things I really don't enjoy. Being together and giving each other space also is the key I believe anyway.

As most of you know I'm a caregiver, I have a lot of time to think about things, Today I've been thinking about how our lives intertwine with other lives. Some of us are alone or yet we think we are. You may not realize it at your loneliest time but if you stop to think you may realize that even if its a stranger on the street that smiles at you they have reached out and lifted you up. The mailman might say hi as he hands you the mail. The cashier in a store may have a kind word. The kid down the street may wave. Theres the people at church that might ask how your doing. Here at moms apartment building I see people in the halls. I try to remember I might be the only one they see today so I make sure I smile and ask them how their doing. If I'm down this may also be a lift to me as well as to them. Yes we are never alone we just need to remember that our lives are intertwined with so many others.

The Magic of a Box

As some of you know I am a Quilter, yes I cut fabric apart and sew it back together. Weird I know. But long before I was a Quilter I was a Crafter. Recently a friend gave me a little box. The box itself is a mere 6 inches wide 6 inches tall and 11 inches long. The magic isn't in the box itself but what it contains. There are little bags in each bag is a project my friend was kind enough to sort each project out and put in these magic little bags. I have looked at each bag more than once in awe of the possbilities it holds. Little pieces that alone don't make anything but together with other pieces will make a wonderful home made item. Yes I am a Quilter but this little box has brought me back to Yes I am also a Crafter.

Been here at moms for four days it hasn't been so bad this week I think I needed to vent. Will get to go home tomorrow night. Saturday Don and I will be married for 40 years So thankful for him and his patience. Love him more than life itself. Plan on making Mini Meatloafs for dinner and maybe scalop potatoes for dinner. Hope everyone has a good day.

Struggling with a decision as to weather to put mom in the Rest Home its been almost a year since we started taking care of her 24\7 I have spent most of the time here. I don't feel like I live at my house anymore. I miss being there and with my family. Getting tired, want to be home family has pointed out that my health has started to go down hill. Maybe their right:-(

I am a caregiver, I do not get paid for it. I leave my husband and home for days on end I live sleep and work in my moms home. There isn't a lot to do in a little apartment. I miss my family they do come often and help as much as they can. Don takes care of my home, the grandkids and helps me as much as he can. I sometimes wish that it would all end and I could go home. I know this isn't how I should feel but sometimes when I miss my home and family so much I can't help it. It seems like forever since I had a reason to complain about not getting out of the house as much as I would like. I love my husband home and family and I miss them very much.