About Mom

Mom is declining making it very hard for me to leave. Not trying to be selfish about being here when she decides to go. I don't want my kids to have to go through losing her when they are here. It will be hard enough without having to witness it. She sleeps most of the time now. Not willing to give in to bedridden but, very hard for her to get up and move around. Giving her a lot more Morphine to make it easier for her to breath. She still has her wits about her. Knowing everyone that comes in and most of the time can hold a conversation. Short sentences but. will complete a full conversation.

I know my mom is going down hill really fast, feel bad yet again she hasn't much of a life that is for sure. Was so glad my Auntie Rose was able to come see her today even though I worry about her driving down from Ogden. I know she is a safe driver but at 86 years young I tend to worry just the same.It seems like time is just slipping away don't know quite what to exspect each day and some days the time seems to stop here and there.

Promised this to a friend earlier.
Calico Beans
5 cans of different kind of Beans as long as one of them is Pork n Beans
1 cup Brown Sugar
1lb. Bacon Cooked
1 bottle of Honey BBQ Sauce
Drain the Beans Except the PORK N BEANS mix in Crock-pot add Brown Sugar, Bacon Crumbled, Honey BBQ Sauce., Mix cook on Low all day or high for a few hours tasting is mantory YUM

Meatloaf

1 lb.Hamburger

1pkg.Stove Top Stuffing

1 egg

onion

Mix stuffing mix according to directions do not cook mix with Hamburger egg and onion.

bake @ 350 degrees for an hour to an hour and a half.

Roasted New Red Potatoes

18 to 20 potatoes 

1 Tbs Parsley

1 tsp Garlic Powder

1 tsp Paprika

1\4 tsp. Salt

1\4 tsp Pepper

1\2 stick butter

Mix Parsley, Garlic Powder, Paprika Salt and Pepper with melted butter pour over potatoes in Crock-pot cook on Low for 7 hours spoon out the potatoes out of Crock-pot add 2 tablespoons of water and mix with drippings pour over potatoes Enjoy

Mom is slipping I can now see it almost daily, today I tried to help her up and couldn't just not strong enough I guess, she is so much taller than I am and I guess the arthitis is taking its toll not as strong as I use to be.My brother came and visited with mom today. I think hes finally realized just how bad off she is. He did stay for quite a while. I have been trying to get use to my dumb phone and learning about my new tablet maybe one of these days I will feel smart again LOL.

Don and Donnie took me into the Verizon Store and set me up with a new tablet and a dumb phone which has just proved to me how dumb I really am. LOL I'm working at trying to use both I think its getting easier with the phone, I just have to remember that its not as hard as my smart phone was. All it does is phone, text, and pictures. Doesn't connect to the internet or anything like that. The Tablet on the other hand is a bit more complaicated It will take me a bit longer to figure out. Mom is still slipping no longer carrys on a conversation of more than a few words.at a time. Hoping she doesn't suffer like my dad did.

My son Donnie turned 35 this last week, not sure how I feel about that. Mom is slipping even more, no longer is her voice loud and strong, she looks sad most of the time claims nothing is the matter, having a harder time getting in and out of bed but, won't give into being bed-ridden which I guess is a good thing. Everyday occurrances seems to upset her more than ever before. Gets furstrated alot more and has no concept of time. Gets confused about things.I guess this is what we get to look forward to

Mom wanted to go outside for a walk a couple nights ago, we encountered a man and boy who wanted in the building When he asked us to let him in we told him we couldn't let him in cause it could make it so mom would get evicted the man said not a problem and got on his phone, this upset mom so bad that I'm questioning weather taking her outside is such a good idea. Although something like that may never happen again.